Home Sweet Home

June 9, 2009

Home Sweet Home
Our new home is unfinished but we’ll stay for a while and make the best of it. The walls are freshly painted, new cabinets have been installed in the kitchen, fresh new granite and marble combine with faded hardwood floors in this ivy covered cottage in one of the most affluent suburbs of one of the most affluent cities in the world.

We are on our way to living the American Dream, a baby on the way, a new business we can call our own, a home being rented while we look for something more permanent, life seemingly becomes more settled and certain with each day. Yet our painters laugh as we ask them to leave a square measuring 2 feet by 2 feet unpainted, exposing the yellowed walls, the water damage, and the original state this house was found in.

This makes the house incomplete. You can look around at the antique chandeliers, the brand new furniture, and the well manicured lawns of our neighborhood. But our home is incomplete there is a square directly above the fireplace where you can see  that this is our temporary dwelling but it cannot be our home.

I light my Shabbat Candles at that same unfinished spot, a picture of my new husband and I under the Chuppah moments before he is told to break the glass under his feet. All these reminders of how we can try to complete each other but the spot where G-D joins is still empty. Our home is a mini sanctuary, with hopes of bringing down the holy spirit of G-D in each room, the kitchen where prepare our meals, the living room with our couch and our modest collection of holy books of wisdom, the dining room table where our growing family will share meals and sing praise to G-D, and the bedroom where we share our intimate dreams for a sanctified life.

So life goes on, and with each breath of prayer, and with each holy commandment, a silent prayer for the rebuilding of our permanent home is uttered. Our permanent home where our love is ultimately completed, where every expression is elevated directly to heaven and each blessing sends its ray of warmth directly into our lives. Each day look at the unfinished, the incomplete, with each glass shattered chuppah, with the wail of each child coming into this world we’ll remember our desire for completion through the divine.


One Response to “Home Sweet Home”

  1. Julie Says:

    Love it! NOW I can get regular updates of your life. Keep them coming – us being a body of water away from each other, blog is the way to keep in touch in details. I am planning to post my 2 notebooks worth of tracking my journey soon… and I have some stories to share.

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